Chapter 86: See Each Other at a Distance

Translator: Shengnan Ye
Proofread by Peter Gong

It doesn’t occur to Ko Chen that Yu Fei comes out from her room. And he never thinks about that she lowers her head and glances over at him.

He knows exactly that Yu Fei can’t see him at such a distance. But his heart still beats violently. He fixes his eyes on Yu Fei and is not willing to look away.

Tonight, from dozens of meters, one up in the building and another on the ground, the two seem to have each other in their eyes.

Yu Fei feels that the car near her house is so familiar. She can’t wait. She turns over, puts the milk on the coffee table, takes her key and rushes out.

She presses the open button outside the elevator. The number changes at the same pace as usual. But Yu Fei feels it is way slower than usual. She is so anxious while waiting for the gate to open.

When she gets into the elevator, she again experiences the anxiousness of waiting. She stares at the red number and hopes it turns to 1 immediately.

Finally, she arrives on the first floor. She runs out with her hand holding her abdomen. She gets out of the building and breathes heavily. But she finds no car. Nothing is out there.

She looks awkward as beads of sweat creep out of her forehead and her hair sticks to her skin.

Yu Fei looks around and still can’t find the black car she saw when she was on the upper floor. She doubts if she has hallucinations.

She turns down the idea immediately. It’s impossible because she stared at the black car for a while when she was upstairs. If it was a hallucination, it wouldn’t last so long. The only explanation is that the driver saw her leaving the window and knew she would come down, so he drove away.

Yu Fei comes down. She looks out. The previous idea that it is Ko Chen who drives the car is even stronger.

But Yu Fei doesn’t understand why he suddenly appeared under her house and why he drove away secretly like a coward. This is not the kind of thing he will do. He is not that timid.

Yu Fei stands there for half an hour, chilled by the cold wind. Even though she doesn’t see anything, she still wants to find something. After a while, she stops looking out.

Thinking about these questions, Yu Fei turns around and goes back to the building. She is absent-minded when she gets back to her apartment. That cup of milk cools down already. Both of her legs go weak all of a sudden. She sits down on the couch, leaning back with her eyes focusing on nothing.

The advertisement on the TV finishes and the drama plays again. The male protagonist happens to run to the female protagonist’s house and apologizes. The two reconcile again and they kiss each other.

Yu Fei looks at the TV without blinking. And she keeps thinking about that black car she saw on the balcony. She hesitates for a while and finally musters up her courage trying to call Ko Chen. She unlocks her phone and finds Ko Chen’s number.

Her finger remains above the screen and she stares at his name. She can’t make up her mind to call him.

“Little dolt. Why would I come to you if I don’t love you.” Says the male protagonist on the TV.

His words catch Yu Fei’s attention again. She looks at TV and seems to think about something. Her doubts are answered by that male protagonist.

“That’s right. If Ko Chen doesn’t love me anymore, why would he go all the way across half of the city to her house and drove away secretly?”

This makes sense. Yu Fei finally makes up her mind and touches the screen. It takes less than two seconds for her to dial that number. When she hears that “do do” sound on the phone, she is so nervous that she swallows.

It’s been a while but nobody answers the phone. Yu Fei looks disappointed. She makes a bitter smile. She seems to have over-thought. If Ko Chen doesn’t even answer her phone, how is it possible that he still loves her?

When she thinks that he is not going to pick up the phone and is about to hang up, Ko Chen answers the call. She hears his voice and some kind of noisy music through the phone.

“Hello?” Ko Chen’s voice is cold. Even though he is in a noisy environment, his tongue is still cool, which makes people feel a sense of alienation.

The moment Yu Fei hears his voice, her words are stuck in her throat. She forgets what he planned to say and she doesn’t speak a word even though she tries to.

Ko Chen waits for a while but doesn’t hear her speaking. Then he is basically sure that she knows it was him who was in front of the apartment. He feels sorry for her for a second. But what he said is totally different from what he looks like. He asks without mercy: “What’s the problem? You are too thirsty and wants a man?”

Yu Fei’s face goes pale immediately. Her hands hold the phone so tightly that her fingers become pale and shake.

Ko Chen feels heart-broken. Even though he can’t see her face, he knows how she looks like right now. When he thinks about her pitiful face, his heart seems to be grabbed by a hand and it hurts.

It takes Yu Fei a few minutes to process herself. She speaks and her voice seems to be produced from a rusty ironmongery: “Did you just…come to my house?” It is hard for her to utter each of the words.

Hearing this, Ko Chen makes a sneer intentionally: “I came to your house? Yu Fei, I haven’t seen you for a long time, do you have paranoia? How is it possible that I will go to see you? Is that because you miss me so much that you have a delusion? ”

His every word is like a knife stabbing her heart unmercifully. Her heart is bleeding.

“What are you talking about?” Yu Fei asks. She can’t believe he said these. It never occurs to her that she is so disgusting to Ko Chen. That abortion file destroys her three years’ companionship.

Ko Chen’s heart almost breaks when hearing her voice. He grabs the handrail of the couch very hard to stop himself from saying something to comfort her.

When Yu Fei tries to say something again, she hears a woman’s voice through the phone: “Mr. Ko, who are you talking to? Come here, continue to drink with us.”

The voice of that woman is so contrived that Yu Fei feels gross. She knows exactly where Ko Chen is right now.

She doesn’t want to think further, so she hangs up in a great rush. She throws her phone away, buries herself in her arms and cries.

Ko Chen maintains the position of holding his phone. He hears the busy signal through the phone and he has no reaction to it.

The woman who just talked to him gets nearer to him. He smells her cheap fragrance. He puts down his phone and yells at her fiercely: “Fuck off!”

The woman is shocked. She can tell from his facial expression that he isn’t joking. So, she stops smiling and walks away carefully.